My goal as a photographer is to make the person I photograph feel confident and happy. I want my photos to show their inner strength come through. When I receive feedback from my clients telling me they felt great, pretty, cool or even bad ass after having their picture taken makes me feel really happy. Making my clients happy is key to what I do. I also believe strongly in making others happy, whether it be someone I know or a stranger, spreading the love is a priority for me. For instance, I will often tell a stranger if I like their outfit or pluck up conversation where I can. If a stranger has a dog I will definitely stop to chat with them and give the dog all my love and attention because dogs are amaaaaazzzinng!
However, for someone who strives to make others happy I often neglect myself. I am so hard on myself and sometimes feel really low because of it. I think that being hard on myself can be a positive and a negative thing. In some cases I have found that being hard on myself has pushed me to keep trying, striving for perfection and being tenacious. Although I do think that the negatives are far stronger, and I come away feeling anxious or lacking in confidence. It feels like I’m wasting valuable energy on thoughts that don’t matter, don’t make sense and don’t help me to grow and develop. I’m fed up of feeling that way and I want to make a change.
I want to push any negative thoughts out of my head whenever they creep in. My goal is to swap the negative thoughts with positive ones by thinking about all the things I am happy and grateful for. I want to take the time to look after myself by pampering and taking care of my body. Before Christmas, my best friends got together and we had a pamper night whilst watching Muppets Christmas Carol (such a good film). It was soooo relaxing and fun to be chilling out with my favourite girls. We meet up as often as we can, but I definitely would love to see them more as I feel so happy when we are all together.
I am at my happiest when I am holding my camera (and when I’m snuggled up with Aaron eating pizza and watching a movie) and I want to make the most of this. I think photography can be my cure to banishing negativity. I plan to start the Self Portrait Project, where I take self portraits once a month to experiment with photography and work on my self confidence. It is always to good to work on personal projects and I am very keen to share this one with you.
I’d love to hear your thoughts and comments on whether you’ve struggled with negative thoughts and what you have done to overcome them.
I think we could all do with some self love now and again.